To my baby Beau,
I miss you more than words
can say. I am so sorry that your life was cut so short and you weren't able
to fulfill all the dreams and hopes I had for you. Even though I have
had horses all my life, you touched my heart like no other horse had
before. I feel like a part of me is missing and I don't know how I will
ever fill that void.
You had become such a
handsome boy in the last year and a half, so different from the
fuzzy yearling I met and fell in love with. I couldn't wait to
start riding you in the next few weeks. You still had a certain 'babyness'
about you, though. I will never forget how your tail would flag when
you saw other horses in the turnout arena as I led you to the bullpen to
be lunged, so excited that I might one day let you run and play with
them. I hope that you are somewhere now where you can run
with all your horse friends like you so desperately dreamed
of when you were here with me.
I have so
many regrets...why didn't they call me sooner, why didn't they
take you to the clinic instead of waiting, why didn't I know in my heart
that you were in pain and needed me, etc. I do feel fortunate, however,
that I was there when you finally passed, and that you were with someone
who loved you more than anything when you drew your last
Please forgive me, little
Beau, because I let you down. You will forever be in my heart
and I will always hear that gentle, welcome nicker in my dreams. Run free
and fast, beautiful boy. I love you.