Where do I start to tell
you, Toby (Puddy), just how much you mean to me?
When I first went to see
you 21 years ago, I knew you were the one for me. Your big, round tummy and
bay shining coat glistening in the summer sun.
When you arrived home with
me I couldn't believe my luck. You looked so stunning and even Shep the dog
had to sit on your back!
Over the years, my Boy,
you gave me such joy. Remember that cross country we went to with my friend,
Bob? I never thought you would go into the dark wood, as you hate the dark,
but you did it for me! Even the puddles on the roadside, when going out for
hacks, you made me laugh as you hated them and walked around them
always.
I don't know what else to
say, my love, only that you were poorly. I know your CD was only discovered
a few weeks ago, but I tried so hard to make you well again, to no avail.
You were so poorly the last few days of your wonderful life. Forgive me for
kissing you goodbye, but I couldn't bare to see you in so much
pain.
Kate xxx
2008
Sleep tight my
boy
close your eyes and sleep
your pain has gone
but mine is still here
Thank you for the best years of my life
forever in my heart.
My lovely Boy Toby (Puddy), I can't believe I have been on my own for 12 months without you. My life is so empty. Nothing has gone right in my life since you are not here.
I hope you like your memorial garden. I visit you often and can feel your presence. I hope you are well and are enjoying your new life.
Always in my heart and thoughts,
Kate x x x
2009
I can't believe another year has gone. It's been two years now without you.
You are very special.You really are. No one else in this entire world is exactly like you, and there are so many beautiful things about you. I will never forget what a treasure you are, the special friend who was always there.
Life is still not the same without you. I still look at the shed where you were, then realize you are not there!
Your memorial garden is looking lovely and I still visit you often and feel you are there with me. I talk to you, look at your pictures around my house and always light a candle for you every night.
I miss you Tobe, I always will.
Sleep tight, my Boy, and I will see you soon.
Love,
Kate xxx
2010
Well yet another year has gone and I'm still sad and lonely without you, Toby (Puddy). Life has not been easy as you know. Jean has gone to see you and my dear Gran has too. Say Hi to them both for me, although I ask you to do this every night when I say "Goodnight.".
I hope you are happy and you are well? Your garden is still looking nice and your special rose is now blooming. I have a poem for you Toby -
I lost a special friend today
the kind you can't replace
and looking at his empty shed
I can still see his face
I know he's in a special place
where meadows, fields and flowers
help make him strong again to
remember the happy times.
I know he's watching over me
he'll be with me when I cry
so with one more kiss
on his beloved head
I told my friend goodbye
They say memories are golden
well maybe that is true
I never wanted memories
I only wanted you!
Author Unknown
Thank you for the best years of my life.
Your loving friend forever,
Kate xx
2011
Sweet dreams my angel and Happy Birthday.
Four years have now passed, my boy, and nothing has changed. My heart is still empty and I long to see you again, my angel.
Your fence has now been put up and a lovely gate too,which has all been painted the same colour as you!
Your garden is still growing and your rose has been beautiful this year, just like you! I will put up your memorial plague when it arrives, so you can read it!
I know that you are with me every morning, noon and night,
God picked you up and hugged you and said, "You will be alright"
He watches and cares for you, and at night he watches over you too.
I've cried so many times, but it doesn't relieve the pain,
when it rains I tell you to stand under the tree and keep warm and dry.
I wish I was with you again, you're my best friend.
Gone from my life, but not from my heart. :'(
Always in my heart, the bit that's left,
Kate xxxx
2012
Toby (My Boy),
Another year has gone, and still my heart is empty. I miss you so much, I wish you here. My life is still empty without you, and still nothing has gone right. I know I ask you for help a lot, as I know if you were here you would make things right. I know you try your best for me and that you are always one step behind me, and that means a lot.
Salt is now with you too and I hope you have found each other and are best friends. Your garden is still looking nice and blooming and Salt is next to you too.
Here's a poem for you-
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I thought you'd be there forever
So why'd you go away?
You were right beside me yesterday,
But today you've gone away.
I loved the way you listened,
you understood all I had to say.
We never needed words, just each other,
but now you're gone
Never again can I be there for you,
nor you me,
no warm shoulder to cry on,
no listening ear to hear my worries
But I will not forget you, I cannot forget you,
for the bond between a rider and her horse can never be broken.
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I love you Toby and I always will.
Forever in my heart,
Kate xxx
August 28, 2014
My Dearest Boy, Toby, (Puddy)
I am so sorry I missed giving you your tribute last year, I was too late. Six years have passed now, time is going too fast, I still remember the day you nuzzled my head and said good bye!
Well, Toby another awful, awful year! So much has gone wrong, but I know you are with me , one step behind.
Whiskas is now with you too, like Salt, I hope you are looking after them both and guiding them to Rainbow Bridge for the time will be here soon, for us all to be happy together again! I pray for that moment!
A poem for you Tobe-
You never said I'm leaving
But you did say goodbye
You were gone before I knew it,
And only God knew why
A million times I needed you,
A million times I cried
If love alone could have saved you,
You never would have died
In life I loved you dearly
In death I love you still
In my heart you hold a place,
That no one could ever fill
It broke my heart to lose you,
But you didn't go alone
For part of me went with you,
The day God took you home.
Author Unknown/amended
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Always in my Heart, whats left,
Kate xxxxxxxxxx
Another year has passed again my boy, and still the pain has not eased. Whiskas is now with you too. Please take care of him for me Toby and give him one of your licks!
I miss you all so very much and my heart is still breaking. When will my pain end?
Please read my poem to you My Boy-
A Bridge Called Love
It takes us back to brighter years,
to happier sunlit days
and to precious moments
that will be with us always.
And these fond recollections
are treasured in my heart
to bring us always close to those
from whom we had to part.
There is a bridge of memories
from earth to Heaven above...
It keeps our dear ones near us
It's the bridge that we call love.
Author Unknown
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Love Always My Boy and Happy Birthday too,
Kate xxxxxx
2015
Toby 
