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Quarter Horse Paint
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April 24, 2000 - October 3, 2011
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Yesterday morning my dear Seeker was down and couldn't get up. I was called to come out to the farm because they thought that he was just sick and/or very exhausted, and the vet was on his way. When I got there I was hoping that Seeker was in the barn, but he was in the paddock laying in mud struggling to get up. I ran to him hoping that my presence would make him get up, and he tried, but fell. He laid there moaning in so much pain. The vet gave him steriods, he had bute earlier, but nothing was working.
I then noticed how his hind leg was swelling up and just not in a natural position. I asked the vet about the swelling, and that's when he went and checked the leg and realized his femur was broken. I screamed 'NO NO NO!!!' and fell into the mud next to my big boy's head since I knew there was no way to save him. I knew I was losing my best friend, and buddy who had been there for me during difficult times in my life.
The vet told me to spend some time with him before putting him down. I told him no, to do it immediately since he was in so much pain. I still can hear the moaning and struggled breathing, I will never forget it. I just couldn't allow him to be in so much pain any longer. I never cried so much in my life as I sat next to him when the vet began the euthanasia. I screamed, 'WHY?'. It didn't make sense to me, Seeker was only 11 years old, always strong, never sick, always able to take care of himself, and now he has been taken down so horribly. I still can't handle it. My heart has been ripped out, he has been my rock during my current divorce, move across country, and difficult work problems; he saw me through it all.
All the boarders at my barn, and my previous barns in Maryland and California are shocked since Seeker became and has been a favorite with his wonderful personality, and big heart. I miss him so much, and I'm going to continue working at the farm since I know that's what Seeker would want me to do, and that is continue to take care of his herd. It's going to be hard when I first go back, but I will manage and remember to use the strength Seeker has given me over the years.
I love you forever, Seeker, my big boy.
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Seeker 
