To My
Pepper,
The moment I laid eyes
on you when you were born, I knew you were the most special creature on Earth.
I was lucky to be the girl you picked and when you were three, you were finally
my family. I fell in love with your patient, gentle spirit and kind heart,
your immense strength and unbelievable beauty. I thought to myself every
day, how could I have found the most perfect horse?
We grew up together for
the next 22 years and in that time you were always wiser than me...my teacher,
my psychologist, my best friend...my whole heart. While people would talk
about their relationships, I would always talk about you,"Well my wonder
horse likes to bow for treats!". I grew to know such happiness that nothing
was ever really that bad as long as I had you. You were what I thought perfection
was.
And now you are gone.
And while I know the pain I feel is a reflection of the depth of love I feel,
I miss you beyond words or tears. I miss your soft whinny when I call your
name. I miss our gentle walks alone in the woods at sunset. I miss your breath
in my ear and your comforting smell. I miss your huge brown eyes that told
me how much you loved me back.
Please go and run and
jump and play now like you used to, my sweet angel boy. Gallop like the wind
and let your mane blow like crazy...hold your tail high and prance with joy.
Feel the peace and happiness you needed and deserve. And know that I
am still down here thinking about you.
You have been on my mind
every day for the last 25 years, 4 months, and 9 days. I will miss you much
longer.
Sometimes I think about you
and my heart hurts so much that I want to call out your name, scream it at
the top of my lungs, please come back to me, I miss you so much that I don't
want to go on without you. Please!!
Then, I think about what
you might say back to me...
Mom, I'm already
there
Take a look
around
I'm the sunshine in
your hair
I'm the shadow on the
ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
I'm your imaginary friend
And I know I'm in your prayers
I'm already there.
I'm already
there
Don't make a sound
I'm the beat in your heart
I'm the moonlight shining down
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there til the end
Can you feel the love that we share
I'm already there.
And for a moment...I
can breathe.
Your Best Friend,
Missy
Pepper 
