I still don't know what
happened the night of February 17, 2007. All I know is that when I came out
to feed in the morning, you couldn't get up. I got the vet as fast as I could
and we did everything we possibly could to help you. But it wasn't meant
When I came out to check
you and rinse your mouth out around 4:00 p.m., I saw that you were getting
tired. I knew that because I loved you so much that I was going to have to
let you go. And I knew that I had to tell you that it was ok to go if it
was your time. I didn't want you to try and hang on for me. Steph came back
at 7:00 p.m. and asked if you were better. I told her no, you were still
down. I knew it was time to let you go. I had my head on your cheek when
you took your last breath and you had the 2 people you loved most in this
world with you.
When I got over the initial
trauma of you dying suddenly, I realized that God has a plan for me. Six
days after you died, Patchy Pony came into my life. I think you brought him
to me so I could help him as I helped you. I know you're up there on the
other side of the Rainbow Bridge watching him. Seeing how he's gained weight
from almost being starved to death and having the cancer taken off his eyelid.
I know that you're happy seeing how he's come around so fast.
I know that you're happy
and pain-free now, running, bucking, leaping and playing again, like you
used to before you fractured your back or whatever happened, and then a year
later, got EPM on top of it.
We had 17 1/2 wonderful
years together and I loved every minute of that time. You had one of the
sweetest dispositions and those of us who are fortunate enough to own a horse
like that, will do anything we can for you. We know there are a few
special horses who just love people no matter who or what and you were one
of those few. You were exhilarating. You were special.
Even though you've been
gone since February 18, 2007, almost 7 months now, I still miss you terribly
and think about you often. I have half your ashes in a beautiful oak box
and a tribute I did for you with me. Even when I move in a couple weeks,
you will still be with me.
Godspeed, Jesse. Someday
we will be together again.