D'Abernon Tyson 






Jaeger
April 1993 - 3rd February 2013



 
 
I lost you my dearest friend suddenly out of the blue...I never saw it coming and after all our years together I always knew when you weren't feeling right and that never happened very often...

I remember the day I saw your photo in the classified adds and the day I went to look at you...wow, there was this prancing, coiled spring of a shiny black horse behind the locked stable doors...you only got one hour out in the open a day. Well, it was love at first sight. I remember the day I got you home and had to place a bar across the top of your open stable door as you were trying to jump over it....you were an 18 month old stallion!!! 

It was a month before I could release you tentatively into the field having had to hang on to the end of the lunge line over the last few weeks whilst we were waiting for you to be turned into a gelding ;o)

We shared many shows together and were always called in first or second until we did our indiviual show when you fell asleep - yes this prancing, neighing beautiful horse that leaps out of the horse box relaxed so much in the ring we never managed to bring a first home did we...but we managed a second and that was good enough for me...

All the hours I spent with you - you shared most of my adult life listening to all my wailing about horrible boyfriends and problems with day to day life and you always just listened didn't you...

We learnt together. We took our time getting you used to everything and I still remember people laughing at us because of all the flourescent hi-viz I used to put on us and that included flashing bicyle lights - lucky you didn't really know - but hey we were going to be safe on those roads whatever anyone else thought...

You were my best friend and still are - I just can't talk to you in the same way or feel your breath on my face or smell you or tickle your tickly spots and rub your teeth on with the plastic curry comb - you loved doing that....

I hope you knew I was there at the end, although the horrible vets wouldn't let me hold you because of health and safety rules, I was right there talking to you trying to hold back the hysterical feeling of loss that was starting to overwhelm me as I watched them push the drugs into your beautiful but pain ridden body - waiting for the moment for you to fall. It happened so quick but so slow at the same time... I hope you don't feel I let you down or gave up on you.. I had to believe what they told me and that you just weren't likely to survive the big operation as your colic was terminal...

Why oh why...I just don't know, nothing had changed, you were okay when I left you the night before....??

Will I ever get over your passing, I don't think so - I guess I will just learn to live with it, I have your halter you were wearing and it still smells of you and I took a bit of your forelock to touch - I hope you don't mind me ruining your hair ;o)

Had I been braver and perhaps more strict about your education we might have made it to Wembley as you were just perfect but I don't care, you were my friend, not my possession and we had fun...and remember I never fell off you even in those early days when you were learning...

Can you see my tears? I hope you can comfort your stable friends Chocky, Herbie and Darcy all who have been our family for all your years...only ever being apart for 6 months when I couldn't stable you all together. I hope they can sense you somehow as they never had chance to know where you went that fateful morning...Chocky was your bestest friend and he seems a bit depressed - keeps looking for you and Darcy, your girlfriend, is being alienated by Chocs abd Herbs so she is missing you too as you know the boys didn't like her as much as you did...

I hope the pastures are good in heaven and although we can't physically stand watching the sunset together I will yearn to feel your breath on my neck whilst I watch the sunset towards Stonehenge from the top of the hill where we stood...

Love you completely, my beautiful and honest friend and forgive me for the moments when I used to get cross when you wouldn't stand still to let me hose you off...

I will sign off now as I could write forever and the tears won't stop either...













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