I'm crouched here beside you, stroking your face as you breathe your
last breath, and I can feel your hoofbeats thundering in my heart as you
go. I didn't want you to have suffered, and I know in my heart that I made
the right decision, but I miss you already.
I miss the way you neatly stacked your corn cobs at the end of your trough,
and I miss the way you would nicker at me when you'd see me. I miss the way
you'd rub your head on my chest and sniff my pockets for treats. I miss the
way you would lower your head and peer at me with your soft eyes through
the crack between the barn doors, and I miss the way you would tug on my
hoodie strings and shoe strings so that I would give you treats. I miss all
the ways you would tug on my heart strings, and most of all, I miss
you.
Many times you were my
hero, Gipper, and I hope that today I was yours. I love you so much that
I had to let you go.
How do you say goodbye
to such a good friend????? The answer is: you don't.
See you later,
buddy.
Love you always,
Melanie