To my beloved Ben,
Our 3 short years together
were never enough. You took me to places in my heart I didn't know
existed.
You're gone now, my beautiful
big boy. I knew our time together was limited, but I feel you were taken
so suddenly from this world. I really hope you are up there in "Horsey Heaven",
as Kizzie calls it, galloping and having fun.
I'll never forget taking
you over to the vets, where everyone thought without a doubt, you'd be back
home feeling like a new horse. I think that's why it was such a shock to
hear it was your time to go.
I've only been back out to your stable once since I lost you. Even
Max has planted a tree in your memory. You know you were always his favourite!!!!
I planted my own tree with your shoes in it, my "BEN" tree. Certainly if
anybody steals it I know it's 'ours' with your shoes.
I wish we could have been
together for longer but something decided it was time for you to go. One
in a million, my boy. Daisy said you went peacefully, it was the kindest
thing to do.
You came into my life when
I least expected it. I was on my way with Gran to look at another horse.
You were the one though. When that gorgeous big head of yours popped up,
something happened, even Gran was so taken with you. As was everyone who
met you after I brought you home.
Ben, I don't know how to
end this, for me there will be no end. You appear in my sleep. I think about
you at the daftest times. Kizzie and I went to get something for dinner earlier
cause my fridge/freezer is broken and as always, the carrots are one of the
first things I see. I see the carrots and apples and I see you. People say
it gets easier. I hope so, the huge gap in my life is tearing me apart.
Gone for now and never
to be forgotten
Ben, my beloved boy.
I love you more than I can say,
Mere words don't do you justice.
My wonderful boy,
Love from Mum.
Loads of love from Ilona.
Ben 
